I apologize for not having posted an update in so long. I know it has been a long time and though I have been very busy, that is not a good excuse. Last time I mentioned that I was having some health complications and I requested your prayers on my behalf. Although I had a scheduled appointment to receive a heart monitor on September 27th I was beginning to do better my then and with my parents help I decided to postpone it and do it if it was only necessary.
I am pleased to report though that I am doing much better. Though I don't have an exact day count it was been several weeks since I have had a anxiety attack and I feel much better. Praise the Lord!
School has continued to go well. Midterms came and went will good results of all A's. Yeah!! My Professors have continued to pile on the homework and assignments since fall break and as we enter into the last six weeks of class the professors are really keeping us students on our toes.
I have continued to keep up my running. Although I am not as consistent as I would like to be, I try to get out and pound the pavement as many times a week as possible. I have found that this helps me not only physically but also emotionally and physiologically. It is a great way for me to relieve some anxiety and stress while working out.
Choir has continued to go well. Right now we are working on eight songs for our Chorale Showcase (Nov. 15) and our Sounds of Christmas concerts (Dec. 3-4). I would greatly appreciate your prayers for myself and my classmates as we continue to prepare for these big performances.
Thank you so much for all your love, prayers, and encouragement!
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Thursday, September 27, 2012
An Update From SNU: Cora Cummins
I'm sorry it has been a while since I last posted an update. A lot has happened since then and I will do my best to fill you in. Classes are going well. To say the least, some of them have been challenging but that's a good thing, right? My yearbook practicum has been keeping me busy going to events and taking photos. This has really helped me put myself out there and assisted in helping me make friends. This week alone I will be covering to events and taking photos while I'm there! Oh, by the way, I got an official mailbox on campus! I am so excited!! If you are interested in writing me my address is:
SNU Box 2578
6612 NW. 42nd St.
Bethany, OK 73008
Even though things are sailing smoothly academically, I would greatly appreciate your prayers. This last week has been difficult for me physically. Several times my heart has started racing and beating abnormally which is rather scary. The hardest part though is not knowing for sure why. Unfortunately, it is difficult to time these 'episodes' and I don't know how to react when they happen. Thursday morning I went in to have an EKG done however, the nurse asked me to come back at 2 pm when the Dr. was in so that they could do a second EKG, compare the two, and form a conclusion. When I went back in the nurse took some of my blood for testing and analyses. Friday when I went back in they indicated that they saw nothing of concern in my blood and that it was normal. However, they also expressed that they thought I should have a 24-hour heart monitor to try and 'catch' one of my 'episodes' for analyzing. All-in-all though, at this point they are fairly certain that I have been having anxiety/panic attacks. However, that has yet to be official diagnosed.
If you are unfamiliar with the symptoms and causes of anxiety attacks the following may be helpful for you. "Anxiety Attack - an acute, psychobiologic reaction manifested by intense anxiety and panic. Symptoms include palpitations, shortness of breath, dizziness, faintness, profuse diaphoresis, pallor of the face and extremities, GI discomfort, and an intense feeling of imminent doom or death. Attacks usually occur suddenly, last from a few seconds to an hour or longer, and vary in frequency from several times a day to once a month." Anxiety attacks are normally causes when an individual is undergoing a lot of stress or anxiety due to change or a compilation of previous stressful situations.
Although there are several ways to handle these attacks, in my case, the nurse has recommended counselling to try and help me talk through things that could potentially be causing me to have attacks. Please pray for me as I continue my semester at SNU. I would appreciate your prayers for me physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. These last few weeks have been extremely draining and I know that staying close to the Lord is the only thing that has brought me through.
Thank you so much for all of your support. Blessings,
Cora Cummins
Friday, August 24, 2012
Week One of Class
Well, I've done it! I have completed my very first 'week' of class at Southern Nazarene University. Technically I have only attended three days of class because our semester only began on Wednesday.
All of this aside though, I would like to give you a glimmer of what my experience at SNU has been like so far. Wednesday, day one, was perhaps one of the most exciting and invigorating days I have experienced so far.
It started off with the sound of my alarm ringing. I snoozed for a few moments before "rolling" out of bed. Breakfast was quick and then off to campus. I scoped out my first classroom - Herrick 228 and then found a comfortable bench to sit on and wait. At 9:00 my Vietnam War Film and Literature class began. Primarily my Professor talked through the syllabus but we also had some moments to talk and share about ourselves.
At 11:00 my Interviewing Techniques began in the same classroom as my previous class, Herrick 228. The format for that was fairly similar to my Vietnam course. My Professor talked for a while about the syllabus, her expectations, and the assignments to come. We ended class with a neat "get-to-know-each-other-game". Then I was off to English Grammar on the next floor up in room 321.
After English Grammar finished I headed across the lawn to the Fine Arts building. Upon my arrival I was informed that Choir would not be meeting due to extended auditions. However, we would commence class on Friday at 1:00.
Thursday began similarly to Wednesday had. However, instead of a class first off I had Chapel. Now for some students on campus, Chapel is a boring waste of time. For me though, it is an opportunity to slow down twice a week and really hear God speak. It can be so challenging to find devotion with the Lord in the middle of a busy schedule. Therefore, I find the time designated for Chapel to be both helpful and refreshing.
When Chapel was over I headed downstairs to my Persuasion class. That time-period followed much the same format as my other course - devotion, introductions, going through the syllabus, and a wrap up time. When class was finished I made my way back to my room to eat lunch and study. Although I knew the amount of homework I had I was a little bit surprised at how long it took me to get through it all. To sum that up let's just say I slept very well on Thursday night.
Friday morning was primarily a repeat of Wednesday. The major difference was that instead of focusing on the syllabus, we looked more in the content of out text and used that to launch discussions.
After my third class of the morning, English Grammar, I walked over the the Fine Arts building for Choir practice. Our first meeting was primarily covering the basics: proper breathing, correct pronunciation, warm-ups etc. Overall I really enjoyed it and am eagerly looking forward to meeting again on Monday.
I would greatly appreciate your prayers as I continue to study and learn at Southern Nazarene. Please pray that I will be able to find a good balance between studying, sleeping, class time and eating. Thank you in advance!
All of this aside though, I would like to give you a glimmer of what my experience at SNU has been like so far. Wednesday, day one, was perhaps one of the most exciting and invigorating days I have experienced so far.
It started off with the sound of my alarm ringing. I snoozed for a few moments before "rolling" out of bed. Breakfast was quick and then off to campus. I scoped out my first classroom - Herrick 228 and then found a comfortable bench to sit on and wait. At 9:00 my Vietnam War Film and Literature class began. Primarily my Professor talked through the syllabus but we also had some moments to talk and share about ourselves.
At 11:00 my Interviewing Techniques began in the same classroom as my previous class, Herrick 228. The format for that was fairly similar to my Vietnam course. My Professor talked for a while about the syllabus, her expectations, and the assignments to come. We ended class with a neat "get-to-know-each-other-game". Then I was off to English Grammar on the next floor up in room 321.
After English Grammar finished I headed across the lawn to the Fine Arts building. Upon my arrival I was informed that Choir would not be meeting due to extended auditions. However, we would commence class on Friday at 1:00.
Thursday began similarly to Wednesday had. However, instead of a class first off I had Chapel. Now for some students on campus, Chapel is a boring waste of time. For me though, it is an opportunity to slow down twice a week and really hear God speak. It can be so challenging to find devotion with the Lord in the middle of a busy schedule. Therefore, I find the time designated for Chapel to be both helpful and refreshing.
When Chapel was over I headed downstairs to my Persuasion class. That time-period followed much the same format as my other course - devotion, introductions, going through the syllabus, and a wrap up time. When class was finished I made my way back to my room to eat lunch and study. Although I knew the amount of homework I had I was a little bit surprised at how long it took me to get through it all. To sum that up let's just say I slept very well on Thursday night.
Friday morning was primarily a repeat of Wednesday. The major difference was that instead of focusing on the syllabus, we looked more in the content of out text and used that to launch discussions.
After my third class of the morning, English Grammar, I walked over the the Fine Arts building for Choir practice. Our first meeting was primarily covering the basics: proper breathing, correct pronunciation, warm-ups etc. Overall I really enjoyed it and am eagerly looking forward to meeting again on Monday.
I would greatly appreciate your prayers as I continue to study and learn at Southern Nazarene. Please pray that I will be able to find a good balance between studying, sleeping, class time and eating. Thank you in advance!
Saturday, August 18, 2012
My Adventures at NSI: Day One
Yesterday was my first day on campus for the fall semester at SNU, and our New Student Institution, NSI. Leading up to this event I was very nervous and anxious. I am the kind of personality that enjoys knowing what is around the corner, all the time. Don't get me wrong - I love surprises, I just like knowing that they're coming. Therefore, I was a little bit concerned about the scheduling of the event.
Anyway, yesterday started off with breakfast at Grandpa and Grandma's house in Choctaw, Oklahoma. Around one o'clock my parents and two of my sisters headed over to the SNU campus in Bethany, OK, which is roughly a 35 minute drive. When we arrived I registered and then proceeded to pick up my pre-purchased laptop. Following that my parents, sisters and I walked around the University Fair for a while and looked at all of the booths.
After spending a little while on campus we headed over to the house of my cousin "Aunt" Ellene and her husband Jimmy Howell's house to get my stuff settled in their room. "Aunt" Ellene and "Uncle" Jimmy have been so gracious to offer me a room at their home, which is very close to the campus. It is an incredible blessing and opportunity!
A couple of hours later we had my entire room set up and we were ready to head back to Grandpa and Grandma's house to drop off Morelle and Elsie. Dad, Mom and I then headed back to the campus for an evening on events.
NSI had provided a evening of events including a meal for the parents, a mini session, and a panel discussion. While the parents attended their events, the students shared a picnic on the lawn with their family groups. Following dinner, I participated in icebreaker discussions, introductions, games, songs, and the Lamp of Learning ceremony. All in all I can say that I really enjoyed my first day of NSI and I am excited to begin the next one. Please keep me in your prayers as I continue to meet new people and experience new adventures.
Anyway, yesterday started off with breakfast at Grandpa and Grandma's house in Choctaw, Oklahoma. Around one o'clock my parents and two of my sisters headed over to the SNU campus in Bethany, OK, which is roughly a 35 minute drive. When we arrived I registered and then proceeded to pick up my pre-purchased laptop. Following that my parents, sisters and I walked around the University Fair for a while and looked at all of the booths.
After spending a little while on campus we headed over to the house of my cousin "Aunt" Ellene and her husband Jimmy Howell's house to get my stuff settled in their room. "Aunt" Ellene and "Uncle" Jimmy have been so gracious to offer me a room at their home, which is very close to the campus. It is an incredible blessing and opportunity!
A couple of hours later we had my entire room set up and we were ready to head back to Grandpa and Grandma's house to drop off Morelle and Elsie. Dad, Mom and I then headed back to the campus for an evening on events.
NSI had provided a evening of events including a meal for the parents, a mini session, and a panel discussion. While the parents attended their events, the students shared a picnic on the lawn with their family groups. Following dinner, I participated in icebreaker discussions, introductions, games, songs, and the Lamp of Learning ceremony. All in all I can say that I really enjoyed my first day of NSI and I am excited to begin the next one. Please keep me in your prayers as I continue to meet new people and experience new adventures.
Thursday, August 9, 2012
God's Promise For My Life - Jeremiah 29:11
As the days till I leave for school grow fewer and fewer I begin to reflect more and more on all the things in my life that will change, both for the better and for the worse. I have questioned many times whether or not going off to school is the right choice. However, after racking my brain and questioning my decisions I always think back to the day my parents and I made the ultimate choice and the verse that has encouraged me through it all - Jeremiah 29:11, where God says, "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." This verse reminds me of God's promise and helps me to strongly believe that at present, Southern Nazarene University is the future that God has for me. It also helps me to remember that God will never lead me or forsake me. Please pray for me as I continue to make this transition.
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
The End of A Long Chapter And The Beginning Of A New One
This last week was very bitter sweet for me. July 2nd through the 7th my family and I attended a National Bible Quiz Competition, Q2012, at Olivet Nazarene University. This competition is different than some of the others affiliated with our Nazarene quizzing program. Although qualified quizzers may participate on a Regional team, at Q events, they may also do so on both a district or local as well. Because of the stress levels and time commitment, my siblings and I only quizzed on two teams. I participated on our regional, SNU B team. As well as a local team with my siblings. Elsie, Adelaide and Tella also participated on district, Dallas, teams.
As I previously meantioned, although, these events are a blast, they can also be extremely stressful and long. Several of the days participants quizzed from 7:45 pm. to 6:00 pm. Additionally though, to the quizzing we also had services/chapel, a service project and time for fun and games. During this time my siblings and I were able to get to know our friends from our district and region better. It was a great time of fellowship. More times than not, we stayed up and talked until 1 Am or later until sleeping and awakening again between 5:30 and 6:00 am or another full day.
Friday was the last day of quizzing for most individuals, several quizzers participated in the championship rounds on Saurday, however, my siblings and I finished Friday afternoon. This afternoon was challenging for me in particular. Honestly, I shed a few tears reflecting on all of the great times I have had while quizzing and it was very sad to see those years end.
On the other hand though, I am excited to see a new chapter unfold before me as my future expands to include my upcoming semesters at Southern Nazarene University. Although I am thrilled to be attending there, I am also nervous and apprehensive. I would greatly appreciate your prayers as I prepare for this transition in the weeks to come.
As I previously meantioned, although, these events are a blast, they can also be extremely stressful and long. Several of the days participants quizzed from 7:45 pm. to 6:00 pm. Additionally though, to the quizzing we also had services/chapel, a service project and time for fun and games. During this time my siblings and I were able to get to know our friends from our district and region better. It was a great time of fellowship. More times than not, we stayed up and talked until 1 Am or later until sleeping and awakening again between 5:30 and 6:00 am or another full day.
Friday was the last day of quizzing for most individuals, several quizzers participated in the championship rounds on Saurday, however, my siblings and I finished Friday afternoon. This afternoon was challenging for me in particular. Honestly, I shed a few tears reflecting on all of the great times I have had while quizzing and it was very sad to see those years end.
On the other hand though, I am excited to see a new chapter unfold before me as my future expands to include my upcoming semesters at Southern Nazarene University. Although I am thrilled to be attending there, I am also nervous and apprehensive. I would greatly appreciate your prayers as I prepare for this transition in the weeks to come.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
I Choose Jesus
Last night while running, I had a simple but incredible realization. I had reached close to two miles in my run when my phone started playing a wonderful song called I Choose Jesus by Moriah Peters. I love this song because it clearly exudes the solid foundation of a relationship with Christ but until last night I honestly hadn't thought much about the words.
The song explains that individuals after becoming a Christian cannot be content with living the same as before. Instead they must adamantly profess to the world that they have chosen Jesus as their Savior and that nothing else matters. We as Christians should follow the Biblical exhortation from Matthew 5:14-16. It says, "You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven."
I personally have been impacted by this song and am encouraged to a better witness of God's love to those around me. I hope that this has affected you as well and hopefully, by our example many will come to Christ.
"I choose Jesus, I choose Jesus. The one who first chose me. I choose Jesus, I choose Jesus for now and eternity!"
The song explains that individuals after becoming a Christian cannot be content with living the same as before. Instead they must adamantly profess to the world that they have chosen Jesus as their Savior and that nothing else matters. We as Christians should follow the Biblical exhortation from Matthew 5:14-16. It says, "You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven."
I personally have been impacted by this song and am encouraged to a better witness of God's love to those around me. I hope that this has affected you as well and hopefully, by our example many will come to Christ.
"I choose Jesus, I choose Jesus. The one who first chose me. I choose Jesus, I choose Jesus for now and eternity!"
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Post Graduation Blues and Upcoming Events
Yes, from the title this post may sound silly, but I have been struggling with boredom. Graduation was only a few weeks ago but it already seems longer than that. I have been trying to fill my days with a mixture of productive and fun activities.
Progress on my transition to attend Southern Nazarene University is going well. Thankfully the finances, which were the initial concern, are by the grace of God working out fine. Housing also has been taken care of through an incredible blessing from some family members in Bethany, Oklahoma, which has made it possible for me to live off-campus, saving a huge sum of money, but also living in close proximity to the campus. I would really appreciate your prayers though. I am still struggling with finding a major that is the best fit for me. I have considered several different options, but none of them seem to feel right.
One of the activities that have been filling my days has been studying for our up-coming Bible quizzing competitions. Last weekend was our regional competition at Southern Nazarene University. The weekend went very well and was both exciting and fun!!
Because this was my senior year in highschool, this also was my last year to participate in quizzing. Therefore, I had a very big push to do well. At the end of the weekend I placed 3rd in the A division and also qualified to quiz for SNU at our national event at Olivet Nazarene University on July 2-7.
Because of this my siblings and myself will continue to study for this big competition.
In the weeks and months to come I would greatly appreciate your prayers as I continue to seek the Lord's will for my life.
Progress on my transition to attend Southern Nazarene University is going well. Thankfully the finances, which were the initial concern, are by the grace of God working out fine. Housing also has been taken care of through an incredible blessing from some family members in Bethany, Oklahoma, which has made it possible for me to live off-campus, saving a huge sum of money, but also living in close proximity to the campus. I would really appreciate your prayers though. I am still struggling with finding a major that is the best fit for me. I have considered several different options, but none of them seem to feel right.
One of the activities that have been filling my days has been studying for our up-coming Bible quizzing competitions. Last weekend was our regional competition at Southern Nazarene University. The weekend went very well and was both exciting and fun!!
Because this was my senior year in highschool, this also was my last year to participate in quizzing. Therefore, I had a very big push to do well. At the end of the weekend I placed 3rd in the A division and also qualified to quiz for SNU at our national event at Olivet Nazarene University on July 2-7.
Because of this my siblings and myself will continue to study for this big competition.
In the weeks and months to come I would greatly appreciate your prayers as I continue to seek the Lord's will for my life.
Saturday, April 28, 2012
The Official Count Down: 14 Days Till Graduation
Yes! Graduation is right around the corner, two weeks to be exact. On May 9th, I will graduate from Mountain View Community College, with my Associates Degree in Science and on May 12th, with my High School Diploma!
If you haven't received an invitation you are most certainly invited to spend these special days with me! My graduation on May 12th will be held at 7:00 pm at the Jesse Owens Memorial Arena - 9191 S. Polk Street, Dallas, Texas 75232. My High School Graduation will be held at Trinity Church of the Nazarene - 611 North Cedar Ridge Drive, Duncanville, Texas 75116.
Below I have included several of my senior pictures. I hope that you enjoy looking at them and I hope to see you at my graduation!! If you are planning on attending one of these events, feel free to RSVP on my poll at the end of the page!!
If you haven't received an invitation you are most certainly invited to spend these special days with me! My graduation on May 12th will be held at 7:00 pm at the Jesse Owens Memorial Arena - 9191 S. Polk Street, Dallas, Texas 75232. My High School Graduation will be held at Trinity Church of the Nazarene - 611 North Cedar Ridge Drive, Duncanville, Texas 75116.
Below I have included several of my senior pictures. I hope that you enjoy looking at them and I hope to see you at my graduation!! If you are planning on attending one of these events, feel free to RSVP on my poll at the end of the page!!
Monday, April 9, 2012
Progress and Prayers
For the last couple of weeks my life has held a normal routine: wake-up, get ready for school, attend classes, eat lunch, do homework, go jogging, eat dinner, more homework, then head to bed. Although it may seem that my life has been full of dull emotionless routines, that is far from the truth. Within these weeks God has given me many incredible experiences and opportunities and has answered countless heartfelt prayers.
Although I am still not through with my journey towards college, I am a lot closer than I was previously. On March 26th I completed my application process interview for College of the Ozarks finishing my application. A short while later I received a letter informing me that the school was full for both the upcoming fall and spring semesters. Although I was and still am disappointed, this is exactly what I was praying for. The very morning I received the letter I recall praying earnestly, asking the Lord to clearly show me where he wanted me to go. He was faithful and has done so.
Therefore, I am plowing ahead with my process for admission to Southern Nazarene University and things are going well .
Around a month ago I received word that the sum of my financial aid and scholarships may be enough to help me receive my Bachelors degree without going into debt!! This makes SNU a rather possible option. Still though, I feel the need to wait and pray for direction. Even though one door (College of the Ozarks) appears to be closed, God may yet open it again or show me a different direction for my life.
As I look forward to my college graduation on May 9th, I also anticipate my highschool graduation on May 12th. For the past two weeks Elsie and I have spent many hours planning, taking, and editing my senior pictures. Although it has been a neat and sweet experience, it also has been challenging and emotional. God is faithful though and is helping me to overcome the final hurdles of highschool. This is not the end though. Therefore, I would greatly appreciate your prayers as I continue to wait and pray for direction in my college process. Please remember me as well as I continue my college level course this semester, that I will find favor in my teachers and that it will go smooth and well. Thank you for all of your support, love and prayers! May the Lord richly bless you all!!
Although I am still not through with my journey towards college, I am a lot closer than I was previously. On March 26th I completed my application process interview for College of the Ozarks finishing my application. A short while later I received a letter informing me that the school was full for both the upcoming fall and spring semesters. Although I was and still am disappointed, this is exactly what I was praying for. The very morning I received the letter I recall praying earnestly, asking the Lord to clearly show me where he wanted me to go. He was faithful and has done so.
Therefore, I am plowing ahead with my process for admission to Southern Nazarene University and things are going well .
Around a month ago I received word that the sum of my financial aid and scholarships may be enough to help me receive my Bachelors degree without going into debt!! This makes SNU a rather possible option. Still though, I feel the need to wait and pray for direction. Even though one door (College of the Ozarks) appears to be closed, God may yet open it again or show me a different direction for my life.
As I look forward to my college graduation on May 9th, I also anticipate my highschool graduation on May 12th. For the past two weeks Elsie and I have spent many hours planning, taking, and editing my senior pictures. Although it has been a neat and sweet experience, it also has been challenging and emotional. God is faithful though and is helping me to overcome the final hurdles of highschool. This is not the end though. Therefore, I would greatly appreciate your prayers as I continue to wait and pray for direction in my college process. Please remember me as well as I continue my college level course this semester, that I will find favor in my teachers and that it will go smooth and well. Thank you for all of your support, love and prayers! May the Lord richly bless you all!!
Monday, March 5, 2012
The Journey Has Begun....
These last few weeks have been rather slow for me. Other than homework and college applications, life has not been very busy for me. I am taking four college level course this semester, College Algebra, BCIS, Government II, and Intermediate Weight Training, however, none of my course require a massive amount of homework. Therefore, in a nutshell I have been rather bored.
As of today I have completed all of the required steps needed for my applications to College of the Ozarks and Southern Nazarene University. Now all I can do is wait and pray. God has been so good though. Over the last couple of weeks he has continued to open doors for me. Allowing me to apply to these schools, providing willing references, extending deadlines, and answering a multitude of prayers.
However, the proverbial journey has only begun. Now the schools have to look over by portfolio and then contact me for a mandatory interview. After doing so I will begin to receive correspondence outlining their financial offers and the scholarships that I am eligible for. Once this is done, my parents and I, with the Lord's help, will be able to decide which school is better for me. Currently, I am praying that the Lord will open my eyes to see his plan for my life and the direction I should take in these upcoming months. I would greatly appreciate it if you would join me in praying! Thank you!
As of today I have completed all of the required steps needed for my applications to College of the Ozarks and Southern Nazarene University. Now all I can do is wait and pray. God has been so good though. Over the last couple of weeks he has continued to open doors for me. Allowing me to apply to these schools, providing willing references, extending deadlines, and answering a multitude of prayers.
However, the proverbial journey has only begun. Now the schools have to look over by portfolio and then contact me for a mandatory interview. After doing so I will begin to receive correspondence outlining their financial offers and the scholarships that I am eligible for. Once this is done, my parents and I, with the Lord's help, will be able to decide which school is better for me. Currently, I am praying that the Lord will open my eyes to see his plan for my life and the direction I should take in these upcoming months. I would greatly appreciate it if you would join me in praying! Thank you!
Monday, January 30, 2012
Doing Right By Your Conscience
As children we have all heard the familiar phrase "your sins will find you out." Even though it was used to scare or convict us when we were little, it is most certainly true. I guess to thoroughly understand this phrase it is important to understand what sin really is. Although there are many attributes for this word, I do not believe that there is one definition that can encompass all of the entirety of its existence. I feel that the definition of sin, though broadly understood by individuals, convicts each of us differently, down to core of our behavior. The issue that has brought me to this topic is more complex and difficult to address in a blog post but I will try to do my best.
For the last two years I have had two educational goals in mind: graduating with a 4.0 GPA and achieving the award for the Honors Program. However, last semester both of these desires were greatly affected. Last semester I took a Spanish course in which I received my first, and only B. My Professor was an extremely difficult person to work with and she often appeared to gear her beginning course towards the native speakers. After my final grade came through I realized that one of my goals was no longer in reach. Therefore, I took the honors credit 'assignment' all the more seriously. See in the Mountain View graduation, Honors students walk in line first, followed by the 4.0 students, etc. Therefore, I knew that if I didn't complete the honors scholar program that I wouldn't be near the front of the line.
Last semester though, I took a Biology course up at Mountain View Community College. I loved it and did very well in it! Early on in the semester, I asked my Professor if she was willing to give honors in her course. She said she was and so we agreed that I would volunteer for 15 honors through the Service Learning Program to meet this requirement. After I was finished I came back to her, roughly three weeks before the semester was over to inform her I was through and she explained to me that she had changed her mind. She would no longer accept my volunteer hours for honors credit. However, if I was still interested I could write a 10 page paper instead. I was extremely disappointed because I did not have enough time to complete her counter proposal.
However, several weeks later when I looked at my online transcript I had been given honors in her course. I knew this must have been a mistake because as I previously stated I has not completed the second assignment. I debated what to do for quite a while. Deep inside I hoped that my Professor had changed her mind and had given me honors anyway; but I knew this wasn't true.
Last week I decided to call the head of the Honors department and ask his advice on this issue. After explaining the situation to the Dean of the program I felt confident that he would speak to my professor of my behalf. A few days later my hopes were shattered. I received an email from my Biology professor. She stated that the Head of the Honors Program had spoken with her and explained that I didn't feel I had earned the credit and that I had requested its removal. I was quite shocked! This was not what I had explained to the dean and was certainly not what I desired.
I honestly didn't know what to do. I gave it thought over the weekend and sought the counsel of family and friends. All of them encouraged me to continue pursing the acknowledgement and approval of the credit. Therefore, this morning I sent a lengthy email to the head of the Honors Program to explain the obvious misunderstanding. He email me back several hours later apologizing for the miscommunication, but he stated that he would and could do nothing more to mend the issue. He said that if I was still interested in keeping the credit I will need to address my Professor directly. I am not sure if I will though, mostly likely she will remain steadfast to her previous decision and remove the credit as she stated.
If I had chosen though, to keep the credit, in secret, without bringing the mistake to my Professor's knowledge, I would have had to live with that guilt for the rest of my life. By deceiving my Professor, and 'stealing' the credit, even though deserved, would have been sinning. I have realized though, with the aid of my parents and grandparents that although I deserve honors in Biology, my honesty and integrity is far more important. God will honor me because of my behavior and he will ultimately reward my actions.
For the last two years I have had two educational goals in mind: graduating with a 4.0 GPA and achieving the award for the Honors Program. However, last semester both of these desires were greatly affected. Last semester I took a Spanish course in which I received my first, and only B. My Professor was an extremely difficult person to work with and she often appeared to gear her beginning course towards the native speakers. After my final grade came through I realized that one of my goals was no longer in reach. Therefore, I took the honors credit 'assignment' all the more seriously. See in the Mountain View graduation, Honors students walk in line first, followed by the 4.0 students, etc. Therefore, I knew that if I didn't complete the honors scholar program that I wouldn't be near the front of the line.
Last semester though, I took a Biology course up at Mountain View Community College. I loved it and did very well in it! Early on in the semester, I asked my Professor if she was willing to give honors in her course. She said she was and so we agreed that I would volunteer for 15 honors through the Service Learning Program to meet this requirement. After I was finished I came back to her, roughly three weeks before the semester was over to inform her I was through and she explained to me that she had changed her mind. She would no longer accept my volunteer hours for honors credit. However, if I was still interested I could write a 10 page paper instead. I was extremely disappointed because I did not have enough time to complete her counter proposal.
However, several weeks later when I looked at my online transcript I had been given honors in her course. I knew this must have been a mistake because as I previously stated I has not completed the second assignment. I debated what to do for quite a while. Deep inside I hoped that my Professor had changed her mind and had given me honors anyway; but I knew this wasn't true.
Last week I decided to call the head of the Honors department and ask his advice on this issue. After explaining the situation to the Dean of the program I felt confident that he would speak to my professor of my behalf. A few days later my hopes were shattered. I received an email from my Biology professor. She stated that the Head of the Honors Program had spoken with her and explained that I didn't feel I had earned the credit and that I had requested its removal. I was quite shocked! This was not what I had explained to the dean and was certainly not what I desired.
I honestly didn't know what to do. I gave it thought over the weekend and sought the counsel of family and friends. All of them encouraged me to continue pursing the acknowledgement and approval of the credit. Therefore, this morning I sent a lengthy email to the head of the Honors Program to explain the obvious misunderstanding. He email me back several hours later apologizing for the miscommunication, but he stated that he would and could do nothing more to mend the issue. He said that if I was still interested in keeping the credit I will need to address my Professor directly. I am not sure if I will though, mostly likely she will remain steadfast to her previous decision and remove the credit as she stated.
If I had chosen though, to keep the credit, in secret, without bringing the mistake to my Professor's knowledge, I would have had to live with that guilt for the rest of my life. By deceiving my Professor, and 'stealing' the credit, even though deserved, would have been sinning. I have realized though, with the aid of my parents and grandparents that although I deserve honors in Biology, my honesty and integrity is far more important. God will honor me because of my behavior and he will ultimately reward my actions.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Empty My Hands
This evening as I was cleaning our church, I plugged in my headphones and started listening to a playlist of my favorite music. A couple of songs into it was one of my favorites, "Empty My Hands" by Tenth Avenue North. Although I love this song for the beautiful melody, accompaniment and vocal talent exhibited, I particularly love the lyrics.
The lyrics go as follows: "I've got voices in my head, they are so strong and I'm getting sick of this, Oh Lord, how long will I be haunted by the fear that I believe. My hands are like locks on cages of these dreams I can't set free. But if these dreams die. If I lay down all my wounded pride. If I let these dreams die will I find that letting go lets me come alive. So empty my hands, fill up my heart, capture my mind with you."
Although I have listened to this song countless times, I don't believe it has ever impacted more than it did tonight. I suppose this song reached me exactly where I needed it.
For the past couple of months I have been really struggling with my future. I keep telling myself that I've given it to God and then I suddenly change my mind and take it back again. I know I'm not in control, but I have a bad habit of back-seat-driving. I get angry sometimes and try to decide where I am going to attend for college, what I'm going to major in, when and who I'm going to marry etc. Therefore, when the lyrics filled my headphones, I really felt like God was speaking directly me me.
Through the lyrics I kept hearing him say "Let me empty your hands, let me fill up your heart, let me capture your mind. (I have a plan for you that is better than your dreams and goals, just be patient and I will show you my plan)"
Before I knew it I was singing along with teary eyes and a softened heart. After a couple of moments though, I realize that the 'story'/'song' doesn't end there it goes on to explain the true struggles that come after a complete submission to the Lord. If speaks of temptations, loss, struggles and pain. Ultimately, though, when we are in the Lord's will we have nothing to fear because he directs our paths.
Therefore, my prayer to night is this: "Lord empty my hands, fill up my heart, capture my mind with you. Please, empty my hands, fill up my heart, capture my mind with you."
The lyrics go as follows: "I've got voices in my head, they are so strong and I'm getting sick of this, Oh Lord, how long will I be haunted by the fear that I believe. My hands are like locks on cages of these dreams I can't set free. But if these dreams die. If I lay down all my wounded pride. If I let these dreams die will I find that letting go lets me come alive. So empty my hands, fill up my heart, capture my mind with you."
Although I have listened to this song countless times, I don't believe it has ever impacted more than it did tonight. I suppose this song reached me exactly where I needed it.
For the past couple of months I have been really struggling with my future. I keep telling myself that I've given it to God and then I suddenly change my mind and take it back again. I know I'm not in control, but I have a bad habit of back-seat-driving. I get angry sometimes and try to decide where I am going to attend for college, what I'm going to major in, when and who I'm going to marry etc. Therefore, when the lyrics filled my headphones, I really felt like God was speaking directly me me.
Through the lyrics I kept hearing him say "Let me empty your hands, let me fill up your heart, let me capture your mind. (I have a plan for you that is better than your dreams and goals, just be patient and I will show you my plan)"
Before I knew it I was singing along with teary eyes and a softened heart. After a couple of moments though, I realize that the 'story'/'song' doesn't end there it goes on to explain the true struggles that come after a complete submission to the Lord. If speaks of temptations, loss, struggles and pain. Ultimately, though, when we are in the Lord's will we have nothing to fear because he directs our paths.
Therefore, my prayer to night is this: "Lord empty my hands, fill up my heart, capture my mind with you. Please, empty my hands, fill up my heart, capture my mind with you."
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
A Year End Review and Plans for the One to Come: Gun Barrel City
Although the name sounds exciting and intriguing, possibly eluding to a mysterious old war town, Gun Barrel City holds little of the presumed energy and excitement that it's name suggests. Over the last two weeks my siblings and I have tried to explain this to family and friends. However, it is best understood on a personal level. Regardless of its name, Gun Barrel City is a slow moving town, inhabited mostly by senior citizens and those desiring a break from the fast-pace of life. There individuals can purchase a lake house and slow down for an indefinite amount of time. In our case though, it makes for a great weekend escape.
Almost two years ago our family took a short vacation and stayed in Gun Barrel City at an A-Frame home, affectionately known as the "Hide-Out". Our original trip was specifically timed during a transition in our life. However, this one came as a much needed break from the fast lane of our current life-style, giving us a chance to reflect on the last year.
During 2011 our family encountered many changes and challenges, both good and bad. These have included: Morelle's graduation from Mountain View Community College with an Associates Degree, Dad's participation in Family Music Theater's production of Seven Brides for Seven Brothers as Adam Pontipee, the release of our debut CD album, Living Commitment and our CD Release Party, the 'purchase' of a 'new' 15 passenger van, our summer trip to Alaska to visit family and friends, Elsie's college enrollment at Mountain View with Cora, Morelle's 'move' to Denton to attend Texas Woman's University, the passing of our Great-Grandmas Margarete West and Connie Andrew, and our attendence of the US tour of Les Misérables on January, first 2012!
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| Les Misérables |
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| My Mom, her Sisters and Mother |
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| At the Grave-Side Service for my Grandma Andrew |
Therefore, after a long and challenging year of hurdles, our family greatly appreciated the opportunity to escape from our 'life' for a few days and enjoy the slow pace of Gun Barrel City. As an additional blessing, our cousin, Cody Cummins, flew down on January 4th to spend 12 days with us. While in Gun Barrel we enjoyed running as a family, visiting stores and yard sales, watching movies, and playing at the lake. After three days at the "Hide-Out" our family ventured back out into society to tackle the new year. Although it will have its own challenges and struggles, I am sure that it will be just as exciting as the previous year!!
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